FINALLY A NEW POST AFTER SO LONG....

HI, BLOG.

Well, I know it has been a while and LOOK!

It is already the last month of 2016!

So that was a research done by someone saying that humans are easier to be extra emotional in the middle of the night than the day.

AND THAT IS WHY I DECIDED TO BLOG AT THIS HOUR.

HAHAHAA.. NO LA.

Okay, come back.

So, I've went through some FRIENDSHIP OR TRUE FRIENDS issues this year not only MY PERSONAL issues and also MY FRIENDS'.

Sometimes you just get influenced by things easily.

WE SHARE THINGS TOGETHER WHEN WE ARE SAD OKAY?

Ehm, I'd learned a few things from those incidents but there is ONE thing I will always remember.

NO ONE IS TRUSTWORTHY or should I put it in this way?

DO NOT TRUST ANYONE BUT YOURSELF.

I am not saying like, "  WE ARE BFF, ARENT WE?! AND THE FACT IS THAT WE ARE SO CLOSE ON THE SURFACE BUT WE'RE NOT IN THE INSIDE???? FOR LIKE FUCKING REAL??"

OR!

"WOW!!! I'VE DONE SO MANY THINGS, I HELPED YOU AND WTF? YOU'RE USING ME AND WHAT?  NOW YOU LOST YOUR TRUST ON ME?!"

OR!

"SO YOU THINK I AM YOUR BFF AND YOU THINK I AM GOING TO MAKE YOU INTO A JOKE IS IT?"

ABSOLUTELY NOT!!!

THOSE ARE NOT THE THINGS THAT I AM TRYING TO SAY.

But there was an incident that hurt me the most.

Okay, so let's name this person X.

I remember I used to trust X but what I got from X was A PIECE OF SHIT.

Not like X tell everyone about my secrets or what?

IS JUST THAT.. X TURNS EVERYTHING INTO A PIECE OF SHIT.

I am not going to tell you what happened but what I am trying to bring out is, I ONCE TRUSTED X BUT WHAT I GOT FROM X WAS AWESOME.

Totally awesome.

At that moment, I was very really helpless because X turned lies into facts!

I mean, WOW, WHAT DID X DO AND ALL OF YOU TRUSTED X BUT NOT ME?!

I am not going to lie, even the closest person to me trusted X as well.

I was very sad and disappointed on my closest mate at that moment.

There was a few times my closest mate and I started an argument because of X.

THANKS, X!
Or maybe I'd misunderstood the way you tried to convey your  message to others?

At that moment, I was really grateful that I've a few friends who understands my situation and they were being so nice as they gave me some advises.

Till now, I am still grateful. :)

Nevertheless. I am glad that I went through those lesson as it helped me to grow.

Also, after so many incidents, I'd learn to see things clearer.

It helped me to learn how to differentiate WHAT IS GOOD, AND WHAT IS BAD.

WHO IS GOOD, WHO IS BAD.

I don't help or do it and expect for returns from you. I treat you THE BEST I COULD as a friend.

But if you want to thank me, PLEASE USE A NICER WAY.

I DON'T OWED YOU AND I DO NOT DESERVE THE WAY YOU TREAT ME.

I AM ALSO A HUMAN AND I HAVE FEELINGS TOO.

THANKS. :)

*SORRY FOR BEING SO NEGATIVE. I HOPE MY POST DON'T EFFECT YOU.*

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blogged, sharlyn.

2.12.2016