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AHA! ALMOST FORGOTTEN HOW TO BLOG. 😅
I DON'T KNOW AND I AM CONFUSED!
Talking about this made me sad, lost and hopeless.
I am back again. HAHA!
A quick recap.
I finally found a job that I always wanted to do after graduated which is working in an event industry. YAY!
SirYee is my first friend in this company, she is the first person I approached to.
I don't know why? Both of us just "clicked" when we met each other.
Ever since that, we started working together as a "package".
(That's how we named ourselves. LOL)
When we say "work as a package", we really meant it.
Obviously, both of us are working under the same team and we helped each other. 😂
But I would say, I RELY ON HER A LOT! REALLY A LOT!!!
I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT HER IN THIS COMPANY. 😭
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| This was our first event together.🤩 |
A week after I went into the company, I was told to run a product launch with the team.
HOLY SHIT, IT WAS REALLY NERVE-WRACKING! 🤯
But Thank God, the entire event ran smoothly, smoother than my ass.🤣
Weeks later, we prepped to run our second event together.
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| OKAY, OBVIOUSLY SHE DOESN'T WANT TO BE INVOLVED IN THIS PICTURE. 🙄 |
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| AirAsia X Ramadhan @ Bukit Jalil. |
Fast forward to our next event....✈️
But before our event starts, we decided to go a mini trip to Langkawi.
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| One extra person in this photo but whatever, IDGAF. |
Fast forward to our next event.
OH YEA! BEFORE I STARTED, THIS IS MY PROUDEST EVENT SO FAR BECAUSE THIS WAS MY FIRST TIME DEALING WITH SO MANY PEOPLE BY MY OWN AND EVEN THOUGH PROBLEMS OCCURRED AND MAKE ME PANIC TO THE MAX, THANK GOODNESS EVERYTHING SOLVED AND THE EVENT WAS SMOOTHLY DELIVERED! 😭*pattingmyselfonmyshoulder*
But of course without Brian Chua's help, I think I will die too. HAHAHA!
BTW, BRIAN CHUA IS THE "EXTRA PERSON" IN THE PICTURE ABOVE.
HE IS MY MANAGER.
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| Celcom SMB Business Appreciation Night @ TPC, KL. |
Soon after this event ended, IT WAS THE PINKFONG'S EVENT!
OMG! MY FIRST TIME DOING KIDS EVENT!
FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE!
NOT GONNA LIE, It was quite fun but also a lot of complicated feelings in me. HAHAHA!
Sometimes I have the urge to slap the kids but I know I can't because a kind person doesn't want to go to hell after she dies.😎
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| Astro X PinkFong @ Sunway Pyramid. |
Of course... happiness doesn't last long. HAHAA! 🤣
There are a lot of ups and downs before the event starts.
There were a lot of difficulties and obstacles waiting for us ahead to solve as a team.
Well, although our team members (except SirYee and I of course, because package goes together as one) were unhappy but again, THANK GOODNESS OUR EVENT RAN SMOOTHLY.
Seeing how these kids were so obsessed with their idols, yea, Baby Shark and Pink Fong and T-rex as the guest appearance makes me felt how lucky kids are nowadays.
Back then, we don't have these mini concerts even though we have, our parents were not so aggressive to bring us to watch too. LOL
Oh there's one incident I would like to share here too!! (just in case I don't remember about this event in future at least I still have a record here.🤣)
On the last day of this event, right after the last session of the mini concert, a big piece of glass fell off from one of the barricades from the highest floor and shattered right on our event spaces.
THANK GOD NO ONE WAS HURT! KIDS AND PARENTS WERE ALREADY EVACUATED FROM THE SPACE 10 MINUTES BEFORE IT SHATTERED BECAUSE THE NEXT PHOTO-OP SESSION WERE ABOUT TO START IN 30 MINUTES TIME.
ACTIVITIES WERE GOING ON AT THE SIDE OF THE EVENT SPACE AT THE SAME TIME AND THANK GOD NO ONE WAS HURT TOO!
OMG MY HEART WERE LIKE THE GLASS TOO, ALMOST SHATTER ON THE FLOOR HAHAA! 😂
IT WAS REALLY BLESSED AND THANKFUL THAT NO ONE WAS HURT!
HAHAHA! SO BASICALLY THAT'S HOW THE EVENT ENDED.
ENDED WITH A MOTHERFUCKING SURPRISE!
Well, after this event, BOTH OF US were not as happy as before.
Many incidents happened among both of us.
People come and go as fast as lightning.
Seeing the people that I finally get closed with left us slowly.
I started to have hesitation.
I started to doubt about myself.
I start to wonder, wondering if I am really that... BAD?
Wondering if I am really that lousy?
Wondering if I am really that.....
SO MANY "HOWs and WHYs" IN MY HEAD.
I started thinking if I am making the right decision?
I felt unsure and insecure with myself sometimes.
I LOST CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF.
No matter how many things I had done, I wasn't appreciated by anybody.
There's a saying, "HARD WORK PAYS OFF".
But, what I see was my hard work pays nothing!
I tried to talk about it and reflect.
I even started to ask people around me constantly if I am really a person like how the managerial people sees?
Till recently, I couldn't take the stress anymore, I decided to give myself a break.
I might sound very childish and irrational with my decision.....
I understand that nobody is perfect in this universe.
But at least, I NEED SOMETHING TO KEEP ME MOVING FORWARD!
AT LEAST A BASIC COMPLIMENT OR ACKNOWLEDGEMENT WILL BE GREAT?
I am not depressed, is just that....
I AM ENOUGH OF THESE SHIT!
I am sorry if I spread negative aura to you.
I am really sorry.😢
Sky turns grey sometimes, so do my heart.😔
I don't know why talking about these makes me feel like crying. HAHAA!
BUT IT'S OK!!
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, ISN'T IT?
LIFE IS MEANT TO LOSE SOMETHING TO EARN SOMETHING BETTER! 🥳
JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR THE DAY TO ARRIVE! 💪🏻💪🏻
blogged,
Sharlyn.