- 29052020 -

IT HAS BEEN 2 MONTHS! 

Well, it has been 2 and a half months since our first MCO.

3 weeks ago, our government decided to lift MCO partially and started allowing people to travel to work.

Well, also started allowing people to travel 2 - 4 people in a car.

Besides, they also allowed people dining in but with condition.

Many people say they did it because Raya was around the corner.

Hmm, not very sure if is in that case?

But many people still travelling happily as if we had beat Covid-19 down.

Some idiots even started eating out without face mask on, shopping like no tomorrow without face mask on.

WOW, what on earth?!

On 17 April 2020 which was about a month ago, my grandma passed away peacefully at my aunt's house in Klang.

I was shocked because the last time I saw her was on my aunt's birthday celebration.

At that time she was still looking pretty much as usual, in fact her dementia hit her pretty much compared to before.

A few days before her passing, I was thinking about my dad.

Not sure if it was a sign because although I often misses my dad, I wouldn't cry so hard like that day.

Well, a few days before her passing, I was looking back my IG stories that I took on/with her.

It was so funny and she was such a cutie pie I tell you.

Although her dementia is pretty annoying I would say.

YOU MUST BE WONDERING HOW DID WE MANAGED TO GO BACK TO BP.

Well, Aaron and Shing Yih was there after the incident.

He helped my aunt to call paramedics and went to the police station to get permission for us to go back to BP.

At that time, we had at least 150 new Covid-19 cases per day so MCO was pretty strict at that moment.

Aaron begged the police to let us go back as Ah Ma had already bought her "land" when my grandpa passed away which was 11 years ago.

Initially the police didn't allow us to travel, he gave us two options.

1. Leave Ah Ma's body in the freezer till MCO is lifted.

2. Cremate or burry her immediately somewhere in Klang, then when MCO is lifted, only send her body back.

Of course her children against the two options that the police gave.

After a few rounds of hustles, we were finally allowed to go back.

Our journey was pretty smooth on our way back home.

Ah Ma and the ancestors must be blessing us!

I remember I just woke up when my mum called me and tell me the news.

I woke Oscar up immediately and I am fucking thankful that he took the risk to follow me back for Ah Ma's funeral.

During the funeral, he was there.

When we were having praying sessions, he was there to help us folding joss papers.

I am really blessed to have him to be honest.

Hopefully a few years later I am still feeling blessed to have him la! HAHAHA

Anyway, after the funeral, I decided to stay a lil bit longer with my fam because it has been a while since I go back, so must as well take the opportunity to stay longer with them.

Both of us were also afraid if the government suddenly decided to extend MCO again so we only stay about a week at home.

I was very busy at home actually.

Mum had been stuffing food into my stomach everyday.

She tried making You tiao, then later impromptu mooncakes, then later cakes and etc.

I miss home! I wish I could stay longer at home.

Butter Marble Cake.

You Tiao.

Traditional Mooncake.

Pandan Chiffon Cake.

Again, travelling interstate is so troublesome.

Oscar and I had to go to the police station to get a new permit to come back.

Hmm... after an hour of hustle, we finally got our permit.

The policewoman ask if we are husband and wife and OBVIOUSLY NO?!

We said we are cousins. LOL

A few days after coming back from BP, I smuggled to my aunt's house secretly with my cousin to keep her accompanied for a week.

During a week of "staycation" in Klang, my aunt has been baking non-stop.

When I say non-stop means EVERYDAY.

I felt I was staying in a bakery LOL.

She will make bread every 2 days because the house is full of bread lover.

Then cakes per request. Okay I was asked to make waffles and burnt cheesecake okay.

THANK GOD IT WAS A SUCCESS!

Basque Burnt Cheesecake.

Cinnamon Roll.

Fried Carrot Cake aka Chai Tow Kuey.

Wholemeal Sandwich Loaf.

Vegetarian Bibimbap.

The Imperial Feast.

Staying at home was fun and hard at the same time.

I sent plenty of resumés and hoping for a reply.

Earlier this month, government decided to lift MCO partially.

Many people started working and I also got a few replies and a few rounds of interviews with some companies.

Apparently, one of those is my favourite because is a job that I want to work!

Unfortunately, they are not hiring at the moment due to the pandemic.

Many events were on hold and the only way to sustain their business now is conduct Digital Events.

I mean I understand la, many people got laid off because their company cannot sustain anymore.

Until a few days ago, I was asked to go for an interview at Q sentral for E-commerce Exec. position.

I mean, I wasn't having high expectation tbh coz I went there for the sake of interviewing only.

During the interview, the boss was kinda rude and he was fucking ego!

As usual, I was asked to introduce myself and I did.

Then the first question that he asked me was, "What kind of expectations am I seeking for in my future job based on my past working experiences?"

I remembered answering work-life balance, acknowledgement and get paid on what I am deserved to.

So he asked me to choose the most important one and I chose work-life balance.

He then answered me that he would like to stop the interview there because the position that I applied doesn't have work-life balance, also I am required to work after working hours.

The position that I applied was for people who are "HUNGRY FOR MONEY".

I rolled my eyes in my heart because he simply doesn't understand money is important, but can't let money to get over your life!

When I tried to explain my point of view, he immediately interrupted me with his ego shit again!

So I found a chance to explain about the meaning of work-life balance I want to and he kept quiet after listening to my point of view.

THESE PEOPLE JUST NEED TO SHUT UP COZ THEY THOUGHT THEY ARE THE SMARTEST BUT YOU AND YOUR EGO IS GOING TO KILL YOU ONE DAY.

Anyway, after 30 mins of interview, he told me he will contact me again if I am shortlisted.

Again, I didn't have high expectation in this job because he was such a dickhead.

An hour after the interview, his PA email-ed me and ask when can I commit if I am shortlisted.

LIKE OBVIOUSLY I AM THE ONLY STUPID DUMBASS WHO CAME FOR INTERVIEW SO YOU AND YOUR EGO SHIT SHOULD STOP!

Fast forward today, his PA called me and informed me that I had been chosen to work for them.

So they had offered me a job.

Again, this wasn't the job that I wanted to do but thinking of the situation right now, I think I will just accept first and in the midst of working, I will also hunt for better jobs.

I spoke to my friends and aunt.

In conclusion, just leave if the environment is not safe and you don't like it.

What I can do now is praying hard for my own safety and don't let unnecessary people take over my life!

Oh yea, I had started meditation these days and I am feeling great so far.

Thanks to Joey for bringing me into meditation.

I gotta love myself more, treat myself better and prioritised myself more!

Still learning to know myself more.

blogged,

Sharlyn