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YOU ARE THE BRIGHTEST STAR IN MY LIFE, ALWAYS! Not gonna lie, I am feeling kinda blue today, especially at this hour. I remember the first question I asked Oscar when I woke up today was "Hey, do you have a blueprint for our future?" I so want to have this conversation seriously. I had been asking him a million times actually and I kinda know the answer too. I don't know why I woke up with insecurities today. I just felt like... I am such a loser. I am not feeling lost again but feeling very hopeless. Wake up, eat, playing mobile games have already becoming my daily routine. THIS IS VERY UNHEALTHY AND I WANT TO GET RID OF IT ASAP! Well, I didn't tell anybody about this but I have been thinking of my dad occasionally. It felt like yesterday. I miss my dad, so so so much. I miss how things never goes wrong when he is around. Not like my mum makes mistakes all the time HAHAHA. Is just that... the feeling of having him around is ver...